Searching For What Is No Longer

What do you continue to guard or protect yourself from that’s no longer in your life?

Today, my life is amazing and I’m 100% grateful and full of love for my past and all the opportunity my future holds.

Even so, I find myself subconsciously going back to a sense of “survival mode” when it’s no longer needed and I can let it go.


I believe it’s because a majority of my life has been spent protecting myself from some sort of negativity.

The better part of my childhood and early teens I was physically, mentally, and verbally abused by someone my mom married, along with her and my little brother. Later on, my mom battled colon cancer. And, I’d say about 1/3 of my life I unknowingly flight brain tumors.

I don’t share this for sympathy.

I share this to point out the patterns I’ve recognized that my subconscious falls into with worry, fear, street, doubt, and/or protection from changes when my life is great, my brian is just programmed from 2 decades or more of being in survival mode.

The silver lining here is that even if you can’t pinpoint your cause of survival mode, you can choose to rewrite your life and make an important choice today to take action and create the life you want.

The choice is yours- to live in fear or to live life on your terms.

Which will you choose? 💚✌️

-Josh P.

📸 @jciake