Emotionally Drained

Feeling emotionally drained and mentally confused these last few weeks with the loss of my younger brother.

It’s still a work in progress but I feel guilty to enjoy my life with my little brother no longer in my life. I’ve never felt such a pain and love at the same time in my life and it’s left me confused on so many levels.

As always, BMX is always key for me to clear my mind and just focus on what’s in front of me. I’ve been surprisingly riding very well after 2 weeks off and going through the emotions of loosing my little bro.

It’s been a blessing in disguise to have @jakaremec and his father stay with me for the month, all the way from Slovenia for me to coach Jaka. We have even coaching via skype for months and this trip has been planned for a while now.

They were to arrive 6 days after my brother passed and I almost told them to not come. I’m glad I didn’t because I honestly feel as if I wouldn’t leave my bedroom, especially since @jciake I’d gone on a trip, who’s been my rock through all this and more in the past.

Danny (my little brother) was always so stoked to see me ride and was so proud of what I was able to do. His favorite trick was truck drivers, simple and classic. I know he wouldn’t want me to stop doing things I enjoy and waste my life I’m so fortunate to have, so I’m doing my best to stay moving forward.

I’ve been sharing all I’ve been learning about nutrition & keto, mindset, BMX, and fitness with Jaka and his father Alex and the results are astounding.

It’s an honor to share my life experiences and passions with others, especially the younger generations and even more dear to my heart, young BMX riders.

Thanks to everyone for the thoughts, prayers, and love for my brother. πŸ™πŸΌβ€οΈπŸ’šβœŒοΈ