We live in a world where we’re conditioned that giving up is normalized.
Conditioned to give into fear or not even begin going after our dreams because of others insecurity / past experiences of “failure” projected upon us.
April 16th, 2010, I signed over my life to the hands of a neurosurgeon & his team as I said goodbye & “I love you” to my younger brother & parents.
I was 21 years old & was responsible to sign off of all the profound risks of said brain surgery as a young adult, & the risks consisted of paralysis, going blind, having a stroke, or death as the top of what stood out & caught my attention.
As I sat there signing my life away, I remember this being the first time I truly experienced what life or death fear was like & the thought of dying, never seeing the people I love again, & never riding my bike again consumed me.
Not fear in the sense of thats “scary” or anxiety/worry. More like fear of actually dying & accepting this fact as they inserted the IV into my arm & prepared me for what’s to come with no looking back.
This moment in time where I accepted I may die was a turning point in my life in that something switched inside of me that no longer gave into fear of dying & I presented myself with a choice.
A choice to put my focus, & therefore my energy, into a worse case scenario I didn’t want. Or, a choice in the vision I desired after I woke up from surgery.
This choice to focus on my desired future-vision was a by-product of my being raised to work hard for the life I wanted & from BMX teaching me if you fall once, try twice if you want it bad enough.
This choice was a pivotal moment that would serve as fuel to overcome what was to come in the next 10 years leading to my reality today.
It taught me that so often do we make decisions disguised as fear to take the “easy route” rather than the route most would give up on.
I’m not special. I just made a choice to not give up. A choice to learn & grow.
A choice to prove to myself & others we’re capable of what we set our sights (internally & externally) on & the potential we all possess with a believe in ourselves.
What do you want to be true about your life?
Josh P. 💚🧠✌️